voncookie | July 16, 2009
After giving it some major thought, and after mulling over some feedback I got about my desire to be a writer, I’ve decided to take a break from personal blogging– the kind I do here– to do other kinds of writing that aren’t so public. When I started blogging, the change from private to public [...]
voncookie | July 15, 2009
1:15 a.m. It’s a slog, but it’s so close to being done that I can positively taste it. I feel like I should sleep but I really don’t want to… still, sleep would be good considering the way things have been for the last few weeks. Don’t want to risk my health any more than [...]
voncookie | July 15, 2009
1. What bill do you hate paying the most? all of them, all of them, all of them. I’m a graduate student, for the love of Pete. 2. Do you miss being a child? Meh. 3. Chore you hate the most? washing dishes… ugh… memories of my grandmother’s dishwater at Thanksgiving… blech… 4. Where was [...]
voncookie | July 14, 2009
… if I’ve taken anything from conversations over the last few days about yesterday’s blog post is that 1) I’m not A Writer unless I write 2) It’s all about the writing 3) write write write write write write write!!!! (to infinity and beyond) 4) Even then, with Writing (times) Infinity, being “A Writer” is [...]
voncookie | July 12, 2009
“Do you know what you wish? Are you certain what you wish is what you want? If you know what you want, then make a wish…” –Into the Woods, Stephen Sondheim ******** WSM told me a joke tonight that has me all sorts of thoughtful, about a Rabbi who prayed to win the lottery vehemently [...]
voncookie | July 11, 2009
1. Jonathan Sanchez threw a no-hitter last night at AT&T Park, the first in 33 years. Far from routine. 2. During tonight’s game it rained at AT&T Park… in July… and a double rainbow formed over the East Bay Hills… and I sat under it in awe as the Giants won their 49th game of [...]
voncookie | July 11, 2009
So many things that I want to write about these days, ideas like water from a faucet, a motion of thought that makes it difficult to hold onto more than one of them for more than in instant. So I just let them flow, and let them go, and hope they will return to me [...]
voncookie | July 10, 2009
Apparently inspired by the back-and-forth between me and TooBeaut about Grad School, my friend Outsider decided to write her own piece about grad school, which follows below. Enjoy. And feel free to add to the discussion! ************* Why I am in limbo about grad school This is in response to voncookie and TooBeaut in their [...]
voncookie | July 10, 2009
Went to the Sev just now to get my Dark Mountain Roast, and it’s the first time in weeks that I haven’t been totally zombified while walking through there to pick up ice or beer or coffee for all the activity surrounding Dee’s passing. It was a welcome treat to have someone offer to let [...]
voncookie | July 10, 2009
In the week between the death and the funeral, there was much talk about starting a memorial website for my friend. Now, as people have drifted back into the various corners in which we all dwell, discussion of The Memorial has ceased. Being that the creation of websites is generally therapeutic for me, I’m a [...]
voncookie | July 9, 2009
A thing happens to me every once in a while, usually without rhyme or reason, but this time definitely explicable. My brain goes into overdrive, takes me far out into oceans of thought, rides me high on a wave of inspiration, and then crashes me to shore, grinds me into the sand, demolished, limp, and [...]
voncookie | July 7, 2009
When I was about 19, give or take a year or two, I was a total badass. I didn’t give a shit what people thought about me, or so I pretended… what I really wanted was for everyone to be astounded by my badassery. I was heavily pierced, I smoked like a chimney, drank like [...]
voncookie | July 6, 2009
…but write. I feel like there’s this unending tide inside of me that just wants to scribble my chicken scratch all day and all night until I get this … thing … out of me. I want to ramble, I want to confess, I want to write about everything I’m feeling, doing, experiencing… but I [...]
voncookie | July 6, 2009
When our lives get disrupted– seriously, deeply disrupted– there is really no going back to the way things were before the disruption occurred and everything changed. It’s been two weeks since my friend’s death and I have only just realized that my old “normal” is long gone, and will not return, mostly because she was [...]
voncookie | July 5, 2009
In response to TooBeaut’s piece on why he never went to grad school, I now offer my counter– why I *did* go to grad school, why I regret it, and why I would have regretted not going had I chosen not to go back in 2002. My story about grad school is a little different [...]
