voncookie | June 29, 2009
I’m finally at home, having slept for about 10 hours last night, which was much needed. And I’m treating myself to the 1990 production of A Little Night Music by the New York City Opera that was shown on Live From Lincoln Center. It’s comforting. The night is supposed to smile three times– once for [...]
voncookie | June 24, 2009
I’ve never grieved anyone so deeply in all my life. It’s overwhelming– like being hit by one monstrous wave after another. The only thing that’s keeping me going right now is teaching (even though I have a hard time getting up out of bed to prepare for class) and being with Dee’s family, who have [...]
voncookie | June 22, 2009
My friend died yesterday at around 3:40 p.m. Everyone is missing her very much and we all are extremely sad, but glad that she is at rest and no longer in pain. I have a lovely orchid lei that I wore when four of us gathered in her room to be with her when she [...]
voncookie | June 20, 2009
I slept very soundly last night, not a dream to be had, quite thankfully. I was anticipating a night of horrors, but that didn’t happen. My body took over and allowed my mind to rest. Dee is still–as far as I know– hanging on. I haven’t received word from the family yet today. I continue [...]
voncookie | June 19, 2009
I just got back from the hospital where Dee is lying in bed, diaphragm paralyzed so that it’s easier for the machine to breathe for her, her eyes shut and smeared with petroleum jelly, her chest shuddering with each forced breath. Christ, this is indeed the most horrible thing I have ever seen, my friend [...]
voncookie | June 19, 2009
I’ve had cause to go back and reread a post that I wrote nearly three years ago about the phenomenon of the momento dichoso. To read it click here. I went back to the post because I’ve had cause to revisit the notion of the “Golden Moment” recently, and for some reason, the melancholy flavor [...]
voncookie | June 18, 2009
Sorry, readers, for the inadvertent hiatus… I guess I’ve just been a tad bit overwhelmed lately, and really couldn’t get my thoughts together in a way that wouldn’t result in confessional blogging, something I try to avoid. (Which is not to say that I don’t *reveal* anything on this blog… but believe me, I could [...]
voncookie | June 9, 2009
A post about Alan Shapiro’s poem “Gas Station Rest Room“: Go to http://thenewmodernist.org/?p=30 to read more about the scandalousness of centering a poem around a dingy bathroom and what that has to do with Modernism.
voncookie | June 9, 2009
It occurred to me this morning, bright and early, that there are fewer and fewer Volkswagen Beetles to be seen on the streets anymore. When I was growing up, they were a staple of the road trip, especially when there was another youngster in the car. I can remember driving up to Great Adventure off [...]
voncookie | June 5, 2009
I’m seriously contemplating going back to wearing all black, all the time. You know, where when you take me shopping all I say, when asked which color I prefer in a blouse, in a blazer, in a bikini, is “I WANT THE BLACK ONE.” I’m serious! Then I won’t have to worry about my wardrobe [...]
voncookie | June 5, 2009
Title: The Secret to Immortality I’m sure the actual message was probably an advert for some ED medication… but what a title! That’ll snag you… that is, if immortality is appealing to you. It is to me right now, as it appears I will need an infinite number of tries at Big Scary Convention before [...]
voncookie | June 4, 2009
In 1990, my friend Jen & I did a video of us lip-synching to “Total Eclipse of the Heart” by Bonnie Tyler. It was lame. But apparently, nowhere near as lame as the actual video. Below is the “literal version” that’s up on YouTube now, and arrives via my friend swestbrook. Enjoy.
voncookie | June 3, 2009
It has been (for the most part) really gloomy around here of late… lots of fog, and relatively cold weather, even some rain… none of which I mind… part of the reason I live here is because of the temperate climate… and the fog is a truly mystical event, in my book. I took a [...]
voncookie | June 2, 2009
From all the toil today with the laundry– doesn’t seem like enough to make this happen– my *whole* *body* *hurts*… and I can’t sleep. So I’m up making the aforementioned lists that I intended to do earlier. Just can’t get comfortable. Everything from fingernails to toes hurts. Srsly. No joke.
voncookie | June 2, 2009
…to do approximately 7 loads of laundry today. SEVEN! Criminy. I have too many clothes. Damn you, Target!!!! With your cheap but flattering attire!!! ::sigh:: I have now settled in for an evening of beer, folding laundry, making lists (which I’m sure will get sloppier as the night progresses), and tile cleaner. I’ll try not [...]
